I spent the majority of yesterday and today marveling at how my life has changed.
Yesterday, I spent six insightful and lovely hours becoming certified in Reiki I (a hands-on healing modality that connects us with the healing energy around us). So, now I know how to give Reiki to myself and others.
And today, I spent another six insightful, healing, loving hours celebrating my in-laws’ birthdays – surrounded by some of my most favorite people in the world.
I am filled with so much gratitude and amazement for both days.
Five months ago, I knew something was really wrong when a trip to the museum with my extended family caused so much anxiety that I cried the whole ride in. I was petrified for them to see me. That they’d be able to tell. And that all I had to offer them was more worry and disappointment.
Four months ago, I still believed everything was a chore. That I couldn’t afford the time or effort to do anything but push and punish myself.
Three months ago, I didn’t even know what Reiki was.
Two months ago, I found the strength to give in and open up to anything that might help.
And today…today I am happy.
I am well. Today, I am connected and fulfilled. Today I am able to receive the joy of my family and the comfort of knowing (really knowing) that I am safe. I am loved. I am light.
Today, I gave my sister in-law a picture of Briggs and a card…letting her know that even though Ken and I never had a ceremony to make it “official,” she is and always has been our son’s godmother.
She had no idea that I would be bringing her this gift today.
Just like I had no idea that she would be giving me a beautiful bracelet and a card…letting me know that she is grateful for me. That she is proud of me. That she has always, will always, be by me. And that I am a gift to her brother and her nephew…and to “all of us.”
So, yes, today I am connected. And I am grateful. So very, very, grateful.
And I am Happy.