I don’t think I can forget the day in 7th grade, when the boy I had a deep, deep crush on asked:
“Hey, Amanda, do you like anyone?”
My hands and feet went tingly. He and I talked on the phone all the time, for long periods of time. Of course, no one really knew that, so I was floored when he openly asked me this question (with other kids around) during “silent reading” time in Mrs. Davieau’s English class.
“Maybe,” I flirted. “Why do you want to know?”
“Well, I was just thinking about how you’re too ugly to ever get a boyfriend – so, I was hoping for your sake that you didn’t like anybody.”
The roars of laughter broke out and I mustered everything I had not to turn into a puddle.
For more than a decade, I truly believed that boy…which is likely how I ended up making such bad dating decisions early on.
But, through the grace of all that is wonderful, I did so much better than find a boyfriend.
I wound up with my soulmate.
A couple days ago my gorgeous, loving, kind, intelligent, devoted husband and his brothers – who have through the years, become my brothers, too – played in a golf tournament to support the non-profit where I work.
Seeing them together reminded me how loved, and blessed, and supported I truly am.
The ugly girl with no brothers, has grown into the beautiful wife surrounded by good men who care, and support, and love her – just because.
Seeing them together makes me breathe easier.
I see them and see my son and nephews and know from the deepest place of my being that more good men are coming.